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Well. Brad and I broke up. It really sucks. I'm actually heartbroken but not to a point of being unable to function. That's actually a first for me. I put (and as he pointed out) way to much emotion out there and therefore get hurt too easily. He's right.

I talked to a psychic last night, before we broke up. She said that I should check out this place called Unity Church in Seattle and take karate lessons. I need an interior makeover. I'd have to agree. It seems these days I'm more into my appearence (looks and rep with people) than anything else. I've lost my self-confidence. It's weird to me because it seems like I'm a good enough actress to pull in guys. I've had more guys than ever after me this year. There is something missing though. First of all these aren't the kind of guys I want to be with. I guess that's what makes me the most sad... Brad was different. He's just too wrapped up in pleasing others instead of himself. For instance, he's doing multiple activities, not because he wants to but because he feels obligated. Gawd I know the feeling. Been there done that. Maybe we met to be a motivation and teacher to each other. We both definitely have something learn and teach.

I sat in on a Tae Kwon Do class today. I've made a promise to myself to join. The psychic said that in 4 weeks I won't recognize the insecure person that I am today. I have to say that just doing this stuff today makes me feel impowered. I love it. I'm going to church Sunday as well. 4 weeks. An easy promise :D